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Embrace Today By: K. Wilhelmina Floria

Tears of happiness shall fall,
listen close for your destination call.

A river of tranquility flows through life.

Ride out the eye of the storm, pass the strife.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Lupus the gift that keeps giving

I woke up this morning, all thanks to God.  I slept well until about 4 am when I didn't have my feet covered and when I tried to get covers it was pulled back away from me, and she sucked her teeth.  Yea I know she was sleeping, but. So me being the passive that I am, I go and get the blanket I've been crocheting so not to disturb her. 

I went to sleep about 9 pm, slept good, got up when my mate came in about 10:30 pm. I went to the bathroom and ate the chicken wrap she brought in from Popeye's then went back to sleep. Didn't get up until about 2 am for a bathroom run, the next time I woke up was when I was cold and had no covers on me. I did go back to sleep \and didn't get out the bed until 7 am.  No headache for a change.  Have one now though, I was redesigning this page.  How does it look? I didn't eat until like 10:30am.  Not a good thing, my body starts shaking and my stomach twists and turns. But done is done, I ate some Kashi Go Lean with Almond Breeze milk.

Lupus is the gift that keeps giving.  For the past few days I've been getting this numbe feeling that shoots up the left side of my body.  It starts with my leg then goes up my arm.  It doesn't hurt and it's only for a second so I'll just ignore it for now.  Yesterday I got woke up with a bad Charley horse in my right leg. usually I can stop them before they get bad, and if I don't I can relax them enough to ease the pain.  But yesterday I couldn't do anything but sit up and rock until the pain left.

There's a chill in the air and I love it.  I may go and lay back down and watch a good movie, if I can find one. Fall is my season.  I love the wind blowing the trees.  The darkness in the morning and evening.  The crisp freshness in the air.  Not being too hot or too cold and if is too cold I can put on a sweater. The changing colors of the foliage.  What's not to love, and as a bonus winter follows right behind with chills, barren trees, folks squeezing themselves from the cold in their winter gear, and snow on the ground, ice.  Hot drinks, cream a wheat, beef stew and cornbread.  No more 90 degrees, and I don't miss summer or spring at all and don't wish for it.  Fall and winter are the only seasons I need.

I know there are days that I have written and filled the pages with self pity and sadness.  It always passes.  A good cry, a good book, movie or pray helps.  My life is like a rainstorm, before the storm it gets dark, the wind blows, sometimes the dirt and leaves fly from off the ground.  The rage builds as thunder booms, a drop or two of rain  falls. Flashes of lighting sizzle through the sky and the clouds open and the pain  Pounds the earth with heavens tears.  When it's finished and the pain doesn't hurt as much.  The sun shines and the earth glistens with the memory of the pain as the storm passes.

Today is a sun shinny day for me.  I'm basking in tranquility, at peace with myself and the world.  Today is today and tomorrow is tomorrow and I will live both as they come.

1 comment:

Embrace today.