Not feeling myself

Christmas is over and I never got the spirit at all.  I didn't even want to write or look at my blog.  I was, well I guess I still am, going through some crazy feelings.  I feel like I'm out on a limb all by myself.  If I move too much I'll fall. Sometimes it feels cold out on this limb and from this point I'm on the outside looking in. I will not allow myself to get depressed. I really don't feel that way anyway.  I don't know, maybe it's this cold or sinuses that have me feeling out of it.  I spent the day in bed yesterday, that was Christmas day.  I had a low grade fever, a heavy dry cough and runny nose.  I used the oxygen all day.  My mate has a sinus infection and is on antibiotics, her mother was admitted on Christmas eve with water in the lungs. Everyone around me is sick and I refuse to go to the hospital.

I spoke to grandchildren but didn't get to see them I want to go and give them their gifts but I don't want to be so far away from the hospital.  I feel a bit better today.  I took Claritin last night, I squirted Nasonex. I'm taking antibiotics for my UTI. My mate has cough syrup I've been taking. My fever dropped and my cough is better.  So maybe I'll feel better soon.  One positive thing is that I'm eating.  If I was real sick I wouldn't be eating right?  I was thinking maybe I should go back up on my steroids, no, I'm not going to do that, I'm on 6mg and I'm staying at 6.  I hope I didn't get sick because I dropped down.  I put the humidifier on, on my c-pap machine.  I think I'm going to go back to bed right now  and stay there until I start feeling like myself.