This is about me. What I feel, felt and think/thought. I figure if I express it in an open forum, even if no one reads it, I put it out there and maybe I"ll be able to let it go. If you can't handle the truth, as I experienced it, then watch a movie. Don't read this, and don't stress me! I am moving forward and live what ever quality of life I have.
I'm 50 years old and I've seen, done and experienced a half of century of living. It wasn't all bad. There were plenty of good times, some scary and I can't wait to share it all. I hope to have a few people ride through this trip down my "Highway to Success" with me. (one of my poems)
I wanted excitement and I had some, I've drove a car while it was on fire. My house was raided and I spent a night in jail. I had nights without heat. Went to bed hungry. I had parties with tons of food and liqour bottles that never went empty and everyone was drunk. I lived in hotels with pimps, prostitudes, transvestits, drug dealers and hustlers, when my two oldest children were babies. I mean there are so many things I've experienced and if God is willing I will write for months to come. As my health goes through changes, my grandbabies grown and my children keep developing. All of you are invited to enter my world.
Yes, I'll love to take the ride with you. As one of your oldest and dearest friends. I've seen you come through some amazin things. I often wondered how do she do it. I look again and say she did it and still have a sound mind. Many who have encountered only a tenth of what you have, gave up on life. I know because I've gone through somethings and considered giving up on life and people. But not you my dear friend you still believe in people but most of all you believe in yourself. Keeping pushing through as you don't realize you are a rock for others, we need your love and strength. I thank Allah (God) for you. Love you forever.
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